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Loving you is cruel
I want to see you hurt — really hurt. I want your beloved to betray you so deeply that you become disgusted by love.
Only then might you remember the good things we shared and realize that our love story wasn’t as bad after all. But I know that won’t happen. You don’t want to see me anymore, and your mind is somewhere else.
I wish we’d meet again after all the bad things have happened to you, after the world has shown you its darkest side. We’re not perfect — I never was, but you are.
I remember the way you used to laugh at the smallest things, how your eyes lit up when we talked about our dreams. Those moments felt like they would last forever. But now, they just remind me of what I’ve lost.
I’ve tried to move on, to let go of everything we once were. But every time I do, it feels like I’m erasing a part of myself.
Damn, I wish I could just get tired of hoping you’d come back. I wish I could get you out of my head. I wish I didn’t have so many memories of us together. I want to be brave enough to finally accept that this is over. I should’ve let you go completely, like I did years ago.
Maybe one day I’ll let go completely. Maybe one day the memories won’t sting as much.
Love is cruel. I want you to hurt so badly so that I could love you freely.
